Screwed up again on Saturday, October 6

Today I had a short shopping at Far East Plaza and AMK HuB.

I went to New York Restaurant to wait for him to come dine wif me..

After dinner, we had a walk.. Then I saw my friends opposite me. I waved at them to get their attention. Then had a chat wif them while Barc was in the shop browsing..

After sometimes, I found him disappear from my sight. I SMSed him.. He was not happy. I could sense it. I did not know the reason.

I tried to hold his hand but my hand was sliding away from his hand. I tried to kiss him in the cab but he moved away. I was devasted.

I came home waiting for him to come online and read his blog.. and I realised…

 

” Had a rough day, thought I can have some private moments with her, so I met her up for dinner.

Was about to get her a new Slim version of PSP since her’s is almost broken, she saw her friends, tried all means to get their attention, and started talking among themselves. I just hope it’ll be a short ‘Hi’ and ‘Bye’ thing, but I ended up window shopping by myself looking like an idiot, was about to ditch her and go home straight till she finally bothered to message me.

All I want is to spend as much time as I can with her since I won’t be able to do so for the rest of the month, yet these maggots kept spawning out of their shitload.

I’ve had enough. No more surprises, no more gifts, saving up for someone else more worthy of my time. That’ll be all.”

Barclay, I really did not know how u felt that time. But I could sense dat you would ditch me at the spot. That’s why I had to SMS u. I really felt very scared.. Cos I love you so much.

Pls forgive me. Let me have dinner wif you tomorrow night before you go in camp. Forgive me pls… I love you.. =~~~~(

~ by sassybaby79 on October 6, 2007.